Monday, July 23, 2012

Putting It Off...

I dunno what it is with today, but I dont feel like writing.  I'm just really lethargic and tired.  I have a lot on my mind, yet don't feel like talking.  I'm just emotionally drained.

I guess I'm just tired.  Tired of people making me feel like a bitch for being honest and standing up for myself.  Like it's okay for everyone else to have feelings and whatnot, but the minute I bring mine up, I just feel like they're not valid anymore.  I mean, it is my own fault.  I'm the one that chose to surround myself with people like this.  So, why I am even surprised is strange.  I mean I shouldn't be.  I should have seen this coming from a mile away.

Kyle says I sound like someone who is the subject of abuse because I'm always feeling like I can take one more emotional punch, while hoping that the next time they'll change.  They never do.

And I feel this is a big part of why my self-esteem is so poor.

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