California.

Gotta love that moment, when you mix up the days to the trip you're taking, and it ends up being a weekend earlier than you remember.  Yeah, that happened to me today.  Totally thought I was going to California to visit my mom next weekend.  But apparently, it's this weekend that I'm going.  Either way, I'm stoked.  I miss my momma.  I don't get to see her all that often, but at least she's only a phone call away.  But still, taking a mini-vacation to visit her, is always fun.

Yet Another Sunday

So, it's technically my last day as an unemployed person.  And how do I spend today?  Lounging around, watching movies, and playing video games.  Nothing out of the usual.  Gotta love days like that.  The best part is, now I can actually look forward to days like that, unlike now, where I just take them all for granted, because that has been my life for the past 4 years.

Man, I'm so excited to start working again though.  I don't think many people understand just what its like.  I hear so many people complain about having to go to work, and complain about how they hate their jobs.  I'm just looking forward to joining the living world again.  Not that I haven't already, but I'm getting back to the point I was at before I got sick.  And that, my friends, is way more exciting to me than any of you can imagine.

Money

Apparently, I'm not meant to have a bank card.  This will be my third one in like two years, that I've had to replace.  It's just such a hassle.  To have to go INSIDE the bank and fill out a withdrawl slip, just to have some money.  Oh man, I sound so stuck up saying that.  But it's true.  And I won't have it until next week.  Bahumbug.  But at least that prevents me from spending more money that I should be saving right now.  I'm just glad the people at my bank branch are super friendly and by now they know who I am when I walk in the door.  Thats just kind of sad.  But, such is life.

Food

I have to say, I wound up pretty lucky.  Kyle's a pretty amazing cook.  Like seriously, I know I'll never go hungry as long as he's around.  Here's just a few examples of what I usually get to eat...

So yeah, I wound up pretty lucky.

Subconscious

Sleeping in.  Feels so good sometimes.  It sucks to waste the day away, but sometimes you just have to.  And after all the hype from last night, it was much needed.  Like good rest.  Good sleep.  Because we all know that is hard to come by these days.  Especially for me.  I toss and turn, and CONSTANTLY have the strangest dreams.  Just off the wall things, that sit in my subconscious mind, waiting to come out and play.  Sometimes I just wish they'd say there, and not reveal themselves at all.  Not all of them are John Lennon and lemon groves.  I wish that they were, but they just aren't.

Regina.

Oh my goodness.  Hands down, the best concert I've been to in FOREVER!  Seriously, she is even better live than she is on her albums.  And she's super humble.  You can tell, just by the way she quietly says thank you after each song she plays.  Oh man.  I just can't get over just how worth it, it was to see her finally.

I'm lucky that Kyle was nice and surprised me with the tickets.  And he even liked it too!

Such good music, and I needed to flood everyone's ears with it.

Jumbles

I think I'm too tired to write tonight.  I can't find a movie to watch.  I just feel super antsy.  Bahhhhh.  I think I need to to turn my computer off and try to compose myself better tomorrow.  Goodnite.

Working Girl.

So, I'd just like to announce...I'M A WORKING GIRL AGAIN!  Seriously, I don't really think anyone understands just how excited I am about this.  I haven't worked in 4 years, and that is 4 years too long.  I miss working.  I never wanted to quit, but my liver told me otherwise.

So, starting Monday, I step back into this world I used to know, and become a functioning person in society.  To me, this feels like back when I was a kid and summer break was coming to an end.  I was one of those kids that got excited to go back to school.  Well, this is what it feels like.

It is good to feel excited about something again.

I'm Sorry.

I know I don't always have the answers.  And I know I don't always do whats best.  Or, even treat people the nicest.  And for that, I'm sorry.  I know there isn't anything I can do to go back and change those things I have done, but deep in the depths of my heart, I'm sorry.  I'm not perfect.  I'm human.  I fuck stuff up sometimes.

So if you're someone in my life I have hurt, then I'm sorry.

Work

So, since I didn't really have much to say yesterday, I'll get to it today.  I have my final interview with the Bux on Monday.  I'm excited about it.  Only downside is that I'll be working in the mall.  Oh well, I'm still excited to go back to work.  I'm glad to be moving forward in my life again.  After starting work again, I'll get to move forward even more.  And my life is becoming so settled.  I dunno, I just feel like I'm in a very "mature" place in my life.  I know that sounds funny, but that is the best word I could think of to describe it.

Migraines

I absolutely hate getting migraines.  Today has been one of those days.  My head kills, and I usually feel like vomiting.  So I'm gonna keep this short and sweet, since I can't stand the bright lights for too long.

Gonna go back to sleep and rest up.

It's Thursday

Today has been pretty boring.  But the good kind of boring.  Sleep in until one.  5 mile walk with Kyle.  Play Minecraft with Kyle.  Ya know, the usual.  I like days like this.  Where it just feels relaxing.  Though it has been very hot out lately.  Too hot for Oregon summers, but oh well.  I'll be glad when when summer is over, but that's probably just me.

Regina

So I have to say, I'm a pretty lucky girl.  All I did was mention that there was a Regina Spektor concert, and Kyle was nice enough to buy tickets for us to go see her.  Pretty sweet gesture if you ask me.  And, I'm pretty stoked to get to go.

Kyle always does such nice things for me.  I appreciate him a lot.