Days To Myself

I don't know what in me has changed and what hasn't changed in the past year, but I am just different. My depression doesn't hit as often or as hard. I am a lot happier. I'm cultivating new friendships, and for once they aren't all friendships where I just get shoved to the background. I am just all around more cheery.

This was brought to mind today because I was randomly thinking about how people at work say I almost sound believable when I tell a customer to "Have a wonderful day!" But the funny thing is that I say that to anyone, even outside of work in my everyday life, and get some of the strangest looks because people are taken back by it.

I guess I just see life completely different than a lot of people because of what I have been through. But I still personally find it absurd that people should be surprised when someone is friendly.

But, I guess that's just the world we live in.

Zero Motivation

Oh motivation to write, I wish you'd come back. I mean it isn't like I don't have thoughts in my head that I want to write about. It is just that lately I don't know how to put my thoughts into words that would really make sense. At least to anyone that might stumble onto this.

I just don't want this blog to sound monotonous, but lately I feel like that is what it has become. Hence the few days between entries.

Blah, I will be glad when this writers block goes away.

A Slice Of Humble Pie

Sorry for my lack of blogging lately. My brain just hasn't felt like it could compose its thoughts lately.

But today, I would like to yet again talk about organ donation. But not in the same sense that I usually talk about it. Today I had the chance to chat with my new friend Elena. It was nice. But not just the talking part, but being able to just see an amazement in someone over what I have been through. I know I have been through a lot, but I guess I just don't look at it like that. I have always just taken everything as it went through as it came to me. I never took the time to stand back and look at my situation from a bystander.

Needless to say, I received one of the nicest compliments I have ever received, which is that I am a very humble person.

So, thank you Elena. You are a doll.