It's All Just Life.

I'm not really sure what to write about today, so I'll just write about what's been on my mind a lot lately.  I've been going through a lot of changes.  Changes with my inner and outer being.  A lot of this is stemming from being hurt.  I mean granted, I've been through a lot in my life.  A lot of different things that have hurt me in the past.  But for some reason this is just eating away at me.

Friendships.  They're supposed to be a 2-way street, and if they're only one-way then you've gonna end up with a hurt party.  I've realized that many of my friendships that I have are very one-sided.  In my times of need, I rarely ever ask for help.  Yet, when I do, I get ignored, abandoned, and made to feel not important.  Like everyone else's problems are more important than mine.

I'm the kind of person that any time of day or night, anyone can reach out to me.  I'll listen, give my advice, or just be there for the individual.  But when it comes around to me, thats a whole different story.

Now I'm not meaning everyone in my life.  And there have been a small handful of people that are very good at reciprocating a friendship back.  And in my recent phase of standing up for myself, I've become a lot closer with these individuals.

I guess this is all just a part of life.