Today

Today has been such a mixed day of emotion, and I'm still trying to gather my thoughts here at 3am.  I've been taking this whole situation about my Mama Chris really hard.  And today they've given her 3 days (at most) left.  And its weird, because it brings this sadness to me.  At the same time, I feel joy for her that she'll no longer have all this extreme pain that she's in.  Needless to say though, when I found out about the 3 days, I decided to stay out with my bro, and we did the bar-hopping.

I ran into lots of old friends that I haven't seen in years.  It was nice to get to talk to them and catch up.  And my cousin, Shelly, even came out.  I hadn't seen her since I was in the hospital, right after my surgery.  And all this just was a good way to keep my mind busy.

On top of all this, Tessa (my brother's girlfriend), sat and had a long talk.  Realizing that we both have this same vision, we talked about us opening a coffee shop together one day.  She has the same passion for coffee that I do.  And not just the actual coffee, but the artistic atmosphere of a true coffee shop.  Needless to say, its a big step forward in life, and it would be a fun one to make.

And now I'm tired.  My brain is fried.  I think I need to attempt to get some sleep, because otherwise I'll just keep over-thinking about things I don't want too.

--EDIT--
Since I first posted this, Mama Chris has passed on from this world.  Though the loss of her weighs heavy on my heart, I'm glad that she's no longer in any pain.