I'm fighting myself again. Trying to beat these constant trust issues I've got. Not with one particular person, but with the majority of people. Even if its nothing except what my mind has dreamt up. I try and try to beat it and tell myself that I'm just imagining things, but the stuff in my past as messed me up so badly.
So I cry myself to sleep, every night. And I wake up feeling more exhausted than I did the day before. Nightmares consume my sleep again, and my happy thoughts feel so far away.
Goodness, I know I just said I felt like I have no emotion anymore, yet today I feel overwhelmed with my emotions. Not all of them good. I'm just lost. Thats all I can say. Maybe I'm fighting a losing battle. I just don't know what to do anymore.
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