Yeah, I'm happy. And yes, I am depressed at the same time. If that is even possible. I've got a lot of great things in my life. But, I'm so lonely. I feel like I don't really have many people left in my life that I can truly count on. I have 3 people in my life (besides my family) that really know me, and whom I truly trust.
Yesterday one of those people moved away. I dunno. It just sucks. Makes me feel like my life is still standing in place while everyone else runs forward. I guess what bums me out is that I didn't even get to see her before she left, due to me being sick and the I guess there being no time after that. I guess I just feel so disposable to everyone. I dunno, maybe I am.
Blah. I need to get these stupid thoughts out of my head. And I know I'm just rambling now, but I needed to have some sort of outlet. I keep holding all this stuff inside, and it really is eating away at me. I'm back to losing weight (the unhealthy way).
I just need friends. I really wish my grandma was still around.
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