I'm not sure why, but tonight I'm sad. I have absolutely no reason to be sad. Maybe its this time at night I spend alone most nights, that gives me the quiet to think. Needless to say, I dont have any answers. I just feel like crying. I mean I know there are things that I surpress daily. Things that I know make me sad. I do this because, when I think about those things, I become even more sad.
In the past couple years I've had my heart broken many times. The kind of heartbreak that comes when you lose someone or something you cherished, leaves. I've lost so many important (and some who I thought were important) people in my life. I blame myself for all the hurt. I so easily put blinders on and try to just see the best in every person. And each time that I'm wrong, it hurts a little more.
Maybe one day I'll learn my lesson. But tonight I'm probably going to just go back to over-thinking.
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